… my interest in online media such as blogs and forums. I haven’t posted seriously anywhere for almost a year now; more so in recent months than ever before. That’s not likely to change anytime soon. It seems like everything has been said that needs saying. I used to enjoy research and debate, but it now strikes me as pointless and boring.
Looking back, I can’t help but see all the hours I spent online as anything but a huge waste of time, especially on silly forums. What a blast I could have had in the best years of my life had I not got so hooked on arguing with people on the internet. So many regrets. I’m cutting my losses.
Much has changed. My real life contacts provide a much better outlet for discussing my racial views. I don’t trouble myself anymore about the fate of Western civilization or the white race, not that I don’t care, there is just seemingly nothing I can do about it.
I’m more focused on my own personal happiness. I have grown disinterested in the world beyond my own circle of family and friends. Recently, I was amazed to find out that I was the last person on earth to hear about the current “swine flu” hysteria.
How about you? Have your interests waxed and waned over the years?
Well I have given up on America too. I think it will self-destruct and frankly most of the people have made irresponsible choices and aren’t undeserving of the crash that will come. My only goal is to create some pockets of sanity in an insane world. I know it is cliché and I’ve said that a few times in other places.
The funny thing, Fade, is that Il ragno and I were just discussing you. And he was asking what happened to you. I blamed excessive drama for your recent drop off of posts. You were popular and then unfortunate events effected your popularity. But I’m not like you, and I’ve never had your following online. I’ve always been an underdog anyways. I can’t quit because my life study has been centered around technical themes. So to me, the internet is more than just a means of communication. It is a stepchild of the type of technical innovation that I will probably spend my life working with, based on the career path I have prepared myself for.
That being said, I do think some things get old. If we go back to that older forum that we used to post on (the bad one), they still debate the same things as when you and I were there. I talked to Shayes on the phone the other day and he said it is basically right wing nationalists who like Jews vs right wing nationalists who hate Jews. Doesn’t it eventually get old? It kindov reminds me of religious people. They read the bible, and then finish it. But then they just start reading it again.
For that reason, I have broadened and modernized my message. 5 years ago you would never see me partnering with people like Besohvili. There are ways to keep things interesting if you focus on current events instead of only racial issues. Yes racial issues matter, but you can be just as politically incorrect and fearless when discussing something else. Like the bailout. Like the economic stimulus. You have the critical thinking and you have the guts. Don’t hold your back from discussing more than just race and Jews. Ideology and sticking to just a few issues is old fashioned. The key is to be fearless and apply your ruthless political incorrectness to new issues too. And new mediums. I think my tech skills are helping me to design very interesting multimedia and I have a lot planned for the future.
I can’t rely on forums to discuss my message. Frankly forums lead to boredom and boredom leads to flaming. And insulting. How can I really get my message out when I am getting piled on like a Royal Rumble. But I think I can spread my message through videos, games, art, web design and creativity. And that is the key. It is all about finding a niche. Just like Constantin did with his poetry.
Good luck with whatever you do.
“a much better outlet for discussing my racial views.” ( — from the entry)
What are your racial views? I thought I knew, but during that period when you weren’t feeling well you said a few things that left a slightly different impression.
Do you view the differences in social status between whites and Negroes as arising naturally or as needing to be artificially imposed by whites? Are Negroes “in their place” naturally or are they kept in their place by whites?
When is the last time you coordinated with others, rather than going solo, to accomplish goals re: racial views? You’re memorable to many people, so perhaps you have some latent leadership ability.
How could you just give up on or walk away from the White preservation movement at this extremely critical juncture? – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cf31q4TC790 [video example: note number of non-Whites who have flooded in to White countries]
Yes, I do, Fred Scrooby.
Blogging and debating these subjects is tiring and taxing to sanity and health. It wouldn’t be so bad if Euros weren’t so bloody thick-headed (not to mention the many who are just plain treasonous and suicidal). But since they are I’ve become increasingly tired of it all. Time is better served in other pursuits.
I guess if there’s a sea change in attitudes and ideas that will be one thing. But until there is it will be hard to care.
Same as always, Fred.
DGU,
I find that my time is better spent interacting with my friends and neighbors in real life than blogging/posting on the internet (hence my lack of activity in recent months). White racial consciousness is still the norm my local area.
I’m not giving up on white racial preservation. I just don’t devote near as much time to it as I used to.
Anything happening offline in your local area?
Are local “offline folk” down there aware of the internet activity on this stuff or do they imagine they’re all that’s out there? Have they ever logged onto a site such as this one, or Vdare.com, or MR.com, and seen that they have allies?
Those local people down there know anything about Larry Darby?
Here’s some healthy activities for you to engage in-if you’re not doing so already:
http://www.blackmouthcur.com/HA03.htm
http://www.fieldandstream.com/articles/hunting/2007/10/t-edward-nickens-goes-coon-hunting
Aside from that, are you opposed to local political action? Is the white racial consciousness in the area open or sub rosa? If people are fearful of speaking openly it’s likely to disappear over time.
How the hell did Darby win 43% of the vote in the Dem primary despite being both an outspoken atheist and a “Holocaust denier” ?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Larry_Darby
Blogs and forums are probably mostly a waste of time. Mostly it’s just the same people preaching to the converted, or arguing with “antis” who are not about to be convinced of anything. But it’s a more stimulating way to waste your time than, say, TV or video games, which is how much of the world spends its free time.
I don’t quite understand what you mean by “My real life contacts provide a much better outlet for discussing my racial views.” But if your goal is to raise awareness, it can be done. I remember a particular racialist, who would have fit in at MR, at a particular news-oriented website, mostly read by geeks with no particular focus on racial issues. He seemed to be making headway among relatively normal people. He quit and deleted all of his posts because he was afraid he’d be unmasked, which could have hurt his business, but I wouldn’t be surprised if he made a few converts along the way.
Adios.
There was a meeting in Puyallup, WA of the European Americans United awhile back which I attended. It was in a rented room in a public library cum community center on a weekend and the thing that struck me most was how much better attended all the other group’s meetings there that day were. Ours was tiny and was about trying to put a polite family face on what amounted to a National Alliance veterans group. It either went nowhere, or the organizers lost my contact info because I haven’t heard anything more from them since. I’ve never been a joiner, anyway, or much of a debater on blogs and in forums, but I’m sorry to hear that energy and enthusiasm for keeping the Occidental Dissent blog current is flagging because I only recently discovered it. Something I would like to learn from those who have been around longer and may be better traveled than myself is where they would go outside America today to find another, possibly better, culture to live in. Tomislav Sunic told me Zagreb, Croatia is now more “European” than Europe. Very few immigrants. Are there any other overlooked pockets of Western racial/cultural homogeneity like Zagreb left to explore? If, so where? I’m thinking about becoming an expat.
I suggest that you consider before you totally abandon the internet as a technology.
Yes, posting similar threads over and over again on similar blogs and forum does become pointless.
But there are more creative ways the internet can be used to deliver a message.
Happy trails, Prozium.
Yes, obviously, if everyone of Prozium’s talent were to follow suit our race would be doomed; but he lacks the desire to advocate for his people any longer, which self-evidently reveals a diminished enthusiasm for the cause. He would now probably have a sniggering (reserved for that which he perceives as ‘low-status’) response to “the cause” if used to describe what it is that racialists do. But that is what is. His life is his own, and he is not free to choose how he feels.
Yet I can find it none other than a gift to feel unlike he does now. And so have always the best men of our race.
My personal racial views remain the same. I just don’t have the time to rehearse the same arguments and issues anymore. It gets repetitive and loses its appeal. After eight years of following and participating in this scene, I am certain that I have seen every angle of every issue at one time or another. I still plan on blogging infrequently though, much as I am doing now. This was not intended as a “farewell” post and shouldn’t be interpreted as such.
I also said that my efforts were now based more in real life than blogging on the internet. I’m not “giving up” by any means; just refocusing my attention and spending my time in a different way. That’s not to say I am without regrets. I spent FAR AND AWAY too much time in my early twenties posting on the internet about race-related issues. It was pretty much all I did for a long time. I have nothing to show for it.
When I could have busied myself with dating, hanging out with my friends, thoroughly enjoying college life, instead I was arguing with the likes of ridiculous internet characters with names like “il ragno” and “Sulla the Dictator” for years and years. There is no way in hell I am ever going to make that mistake again. As a friend of mine would say, you only live once.
Prozium: instead of spending the idle hours on blogs or forums debating or discussing the same points endlessly, why not put your excellent writing/research skills to good use for ‘the cause’ and possibly earn a bit of dough while you are at it? – http://www.toqonline.com/essay-contest/
Gosh, life sucks.
Yeah, G. M. Hopkins wrote some good stuff:
“God’s Grandeur”
THE WORLD is charged with the grandeur of God.
It will flame out, like shining from shook foil;
It gathers to a greatness, like the ooze of oil
Crushed. Why do men then now not reck his rod?
Generations have trod, have trod, have trod;
And all is seared with trade; bleared, smeared with toil;
And wears man’s smudge and shares man’s smell: the soil
Is bare now, nor can foot feel, being shod.
And for all this, nature is never spent;
There lives the dearest freshness deep down things;
And though the last lights off the black West went
Oh, morning, at the brown brink eastward, springs—
Because the Holy Ghost over the bent
World broods with warm breast and with ah! bright wings.
– http://www.bartleby.com/122/index1.html
More good Hopkins:
“The Windhover”
I CAUGHT this morning morning’s minion, king-
dom of daylight’s dauphin, dapple-dawn-drawn Falcon, in his riding
Of the rolling level underneath him steady air, and striding
High there, how he rung upon the rein of a wimpling wing
In his ecstasy! then off, off forth on swing,
As a skate’s heel sweeps smooth on a bow-bend: the hurl and gliding
Rebuffed the big wind. My heart in hiding
Stirred for a bird,—the achieve of; the mastery of the thing!
Brute beauty and valour and act, oh, air, pride, plume, here
Buckle! AND the fire that breaks from thee then, a billion
Times told lovelier, more dangerous, O my chevalier!
No wonder of it: shéer plód makes plough down sillion
Shine, and blue-bleak embers, ah my dear,
Fall, gall themselves, and gash gold-vermillion.
– http://www.bartleby.com/122/index1.html
I like his darker shit. You won’t find another wordsmith like Hopkins in all of English poetry.
Yeah he’s a good poet.
A darker Hopkins poem, one of his ‘terrible sonnets’:
” ‘No worst, there is none. Pitched past pitch of grief’ ”
NO worst, there is none. Pitched past pitch of grief,
More pangs will, schooled at forepangs, wilder wring.
Comforter, where, where is your comforting?
Mary, mother of us, where is your relief?
My cries heave, herds-long; huddle in a main, a chief
Woe, world-sorrow; on an age-old anvil wince and sing—
Then lull, then leave off. Fury had shrieked ‘No ling-
ering! Let me be fell: force I must be brief’.
O the mind, mind has mountains; cliffs of fall
Frightful, sheer, no-man-fathomed. Hold them cheap
May who ne’er hung there. Nor does long our small
Durance deal with that steep or deep. Here! creep,
Wretch, under a comfort serves in a whirlwind: all
Life death does end and each day dies with sleep.
– http://www.bartleby.com/122/41.html